42 Then Job answered the Lord and said: 2 “I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted. 3 ‘Who is this that hides counsel without knowledge?’ Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, things too wonderful for me, which I did not know. 4 ‘Hear, and I will speak; I will question you, and you make it known to me.’ 5 I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees you 6 therefore I despise myself, and repent in dust and ashes.”
Ah, How subtle and distorted my mind. I am an analytical man, a cautious man, a man that generally looks at everything from a perceived point of view believed to be accurate and upright. I find my beliefs and therefore my words are structured from that which has been studied and I form opinions based upon the hierarchy of this thought process. My habitual thought pattern has become a programmed formula to decision making and provides me with the foundational basis to assent or dissent to a matter.
So I chart my course predicated upon my structure of belief and expectation and more often than not, with time, I find that unexpected events enter my life turning that which I thought was to occur into unusable refuse. Then the foundational belief of mine is shaken, causing doubt and wonderment to enter in my thoughts and I begin another analysis of why it occurred and begin questioning what had happened and how could I have so sorely missed it. Now I move to, well, what am I going to do about this? And once again the systematic flow of programmed faulty thinking enters again, starting over from scratch attempting to understand my mistake and to develop a new strategy leading to accomplishment of the diverted initial goal not once considering the validity of the initial decision.
How many times do I circle this mountain before I learn that professing God as my Father and Jesus my Lord that it is not my opinion that matters to God and it is not my decision that charts the course of this universe or even my minute little life that matters. My thoughts are just that – my thoughts. My decisions are just mine based upon my limited knowledge that is prejudiced, self appreciating and certainly no ultimate answer for anyone. It is now in this broken, disappointed man that a realization comes that I am still concerned with I and I is still trying to justify I when the I should know that it is Him not I that is to rule and reign within. It is the I that must go and all the rabble associated with the I of me that should be we and we is me but I am Him and He is me. So is it because of I am that I am?
Regardless, of some recent hard knocks causing pain and distress, there is yet an understanding beginning to unfold and a new appreciation to the need of a “new mind” and the heart of flesh that Scripture points to; and the absolute need for the True Decision Maker to lead and guide this parcel of clay to a destination which is Christ in me leaving no room for the former man named I. So what do you think about this O’Man? The I has nothing to add my Lord. Amen
Analysis? I have nothing to say unless He says it. I have nothing to do unless He does it. What wisdom may come from these lips is His Wisdom, The I possesses none, For I have been rendered speechless.
A Day in the Life, While it is yet Day — I could place a check mark of self-identification to my own life as compared to several occurrences in Job’s life
Job’s Character and Wealth lost – Satan Allowed to Test Job – Satan Takes Job’s Property and Children – Satan Attacks Job’s Health – Job Laments His Birth – Job Replies: My Complaint Is Just – Job Continues: My Life Has No Hope – Critical Friends who have all the answers – Job Replies: There Is No Arbiter – Job Continues: A Plea to God – Job Replies: The Lord Has Done This – Job Continues: Still I Will Hope in God – Job Continues: Death Comes Soon to All – Job Continues: Where Then Is My Hope? – Job Replies: Miserable Comforters Are You – Job Replies: My Redeemer Lives – Job Replies: The Wicked Do Prosper – Job Replies: Where Is God? – Job Replies: God’s Majesty Is Unsearchable – Job Continues: I Will Maintain My Integrity – Job Continues: Where Is Wisdom? – The Lord Answers Job – Job Promises Silence – Job’s Confession and Repentance – The Lord Rebukes Job’s Friends – The Lord Restores Job’s Fortunes