In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the LORD and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your body And refreshment to your bones

Within I Find Two or is it Three?Emotional-Confusion

I don’t understand how we two can ever equal one. What do you mean? Well, if we are two and if we would marry a woman and the woman is two, that equals four and the odds becoming one have dropped off significantly. Yeah, but if you extend that premise further, if there are 7 billion people on earth today then are you saying that there really could be as many as 14 billion people here? Your wisdom astounds me. Then that means the Kingdom of Smart Confusion is even bigger than we thought. You got it, and maybe that is a chief cause in the number of problems found in the Kingdom today. That is absurd. I have an idea? Why don’t you just let me run things and everything should work out, and you can rest yourself from any further thinking? What you’re asking then is for me to go through the rest of my life Missing the Mark is that right? Yup, and we are sure to have a lot of fun, and at least we will be together. Unconscious, you are out of your portion of our mind there is no way I will do that, we have to come up with something else. Have at it Mr. Rob, but I’m not playing. Neither am I. What then are you going to do? I am not going to tell you but you had better be on guard because I am getting out of this Kingdom of Smart Confusion. Good luck! You know something Misses the Mark; you are a true “Patheticism”. Gosh, I wonder what he meant by that? Did he just call us pathetic?

It was one of those frequent normal, routine days” when I heard this, “Rob, Do you fear greatness”? And I wonder from where did that come?, This voice sure didn’t sound like anything heard before. So I’m thinking for the love of Pete, are there three voices? But who or what is number three? And could it have been that sometimes when I sloughed off who I thought to be Misses the Mark is actually someone else? Amazingly, shortly thereafter I find myself watching a movie and lo and behold a church scene with parishioners singing “How Great thou Art” and it hits me, God is Great so if I fear greatness then I must be in fear of God. So I go on a search and I find “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom”. And another in (NIV) “Should you not fear me?” declares the Lord. “Should you not tremble in my presence?” Have you ever had a thought come along that caused you to stop for a moment from what you were doing because the impression was so unique to your normal way of thinking that it commanded your attention? If you are in any way like me, it isn’t long that you get back to the routine and the interlude fades away to be forgotten. If that same thought comes to visit again you take note of its recurrence and wonder if something is trying to get your attention. This is truly the definition of a “recurring thought”. It is circular in nature and as you hear people say, “What goes around comes around”, they are pretty close to being correct. The problem is that if you do not capture that thought and begin to develop it, it goes away again perhaps never to return.

So this new convoluted thought has now brought me to three voices occupying one space and I am beginning to think it a little crowded in here. Maybe that third voice could mediate between the two voices already within. But wait a minute, what if “Number Three” wants to take over, now I truly do have two to contend with. I remember as a youth playing King of the hill and I used to fight my way to the top throwing the other guys down until I would stand at the top of the hill with my arms raised yelling out I’m king of the Hill. Compared to this mind stuff, that physical fighting my way to the top was pretty straight forward and not nearly as tiring as thinking. Worse yet I now have a new challenger to the one who is king of the hill. Misses the Mark is pretty easy to ignore but this new guy is a mystery and his strategy unknown. I’m going to have to find out more about him and what he wants. There is one thing for certain there is only room for one king in here and this new guy seems reclusive and not nearly as vociferous as us. Speaking of which, Misses the Mark where have you been and what do you think about all this? Very funny I think. Watching you in your perplexity and now all of a sudden you want to know what I think. Figure it out yourself, you will get no help from me. Just maybe you have found the Kingdom of Smart Confusion and you are the self-appointed confused king. Just as I pointed out before, if there is a kingdom there must be a king. It may be just as apt to say that if there is a king then there must be a kingdom. So if I am then perceived as the king of this hill these other two must become subjected to my rule. But how does one rule over incorrigibles? Frankly I don’t even yet know if Number Three is an incorrigible, but nevertheless he and Misses the Mark are subjectivist’s in my kingdom. As you have seen they are all about the mind figuring, speaking and causing confusion within me the king of a pathetic kingdom which is called the Carnal or Natural Mind.

The definition of kingdom as used here is the realm associated with or regarded as being under the control of a particular influence and conceived as constituting a sphere of the kingdom of thought. Very profound Rob, Thank you Misses the Mark but you do not yet realize how profound because when you think about it we have the makings for a microscopic trinity here. Consider this, I am the father and you are the son and we have the brand new guy, Third Person. I think you’re losing it and I am not all together sure I want any more to do with you. That’s Ok, because as the king decrees, the subjectivists who are always relying upon emotion and feelings are just not able to deal with spiritual things and must therefore obey the one that does. God help us, now I know you have flipped out Rob, I wonder what Third Person thinks of your microscopic trinity theory. Me too, but Third Person doesn’t seem to have much input to our new direction. Maybe he thinks your microcosm concept is fine and leaves us to figure it out. And furthermore, we still don’t know very much about Third Person or what he represents. You have said that two or three times now don’t you think it is about time to find out who or what this third influence is? Yes I do, and when I think about it the only thing I have heard was the question as to whether I feared greatness. Yeah and then you came up with Bible verses and decided that this was what Third Person meant. True, but stop and think on this, if as you said he seems to be in agreement with our present strategy to which we both agree, much is yet to be fully worked out while we flounder around like fish out of water. I do wonder who could or would endorse that. Got me Rob, it does seem to be somewhat confusing to me.

So it seems to me that we presently have a kingdom of confusion that does not appear to be so smart. Here we go again, does your part of this mind ever stop? Not so that you would notice Miss the Mark. I’m thinking Rob that we maybe ought to start all over again. Again! Just how many times do think we need to butt our head against the wall to get this mind thing figured out. I told you before I went to college and learned some things and one of those things was how to create something new. Rob? Yeah? Isn’t tomorrow the 19th of February? Yes. Well I was thinking were going to be 68 so what ever we are we are going to do don’t you think we better hurry up? Why? Well I think the Bible says three score and ten less by power more. Oh, I see your meaning I guess we probably should move a little faster. Rob? now what? Where are we going to find that Power? Gosh Misses the Mark I am not sure. Nevertheless, over the years I have settled on two creation approaches one of which could be applied here to answer our dilemma. Ready for a little mind exercise? To begin with we could use that which currently exists and I don’t think either of us would be too happy with that but, regardless, we can take the two parts of us which can be disassembled, restructured or folded to form a new more complex being or we can construct from scratch, developing needed attributes or nuances that can be merged together to the core of our main being making sure everything we add on to our self is absolutely necessary and justifiable. But we need to first do a self-analysis to determine a factual portrait of us that is, you, and me. When we complete that then we have to use or develop the necessary skills to synthesize our output while continuing our education leading to a more complex nucleus to our person. Does that mean we will have more talents and people will think were smart? That’s possible  but it is also possible we could overdue this when we should keep this paradigm manageable so as to keep our “small box” mentality intact. Yeah, I once heard a guy say he wasn’t sure if he thought inside or outside the “box” but he didn’t say anything about size.

Stay with the program, there is one more very important thing here we must agree upon prescribed basis for growth before we can proceed. OK, how are we going to do that? You guys are the epitome of Stupidity! Whoa, who said that? Has to be Third Person, he’s probably ticked because we forgot all about him and left him out. Sorry Number Three. Hey Rob I think we should go with start from scratch strategy because I don’t know how to disassemble myself. Me neither, but it is one theory. So how do we start from scratch? I am not for sure but one thing I do know and that is we have just gone from a confused kingdom to a no-kingdom.  So that means if everybody would be their own kingdom than we would have kingdom’s of men. Sometimes Miss the Mark you blow my mind. Regardless, we have to move from being subjectivists to objectivists? What? Well we need to be somewhat detached if we are going to analyze our self and the exciting thing is we may just accomplish a paradoxical convergence. I’m lost again Rob, we just might accomplish what? A convergence, you know two points coming together into one. Wait a minute, we forgot Third Person again, what do you think Third Person? After what seemed to be a more than significant pause Third Person spoke the following. “You two have been an experience to behold. What you have demonstrated is a complete lack of understanding and now you seem about to embark on another futile project that will only serve to further demonstrate your gross ignorance. I am the true Mind and Word of God called Wisdom and it is I who control the elements of this world, not some paltry man. I use men and women to carry out my objectives in this kingdom which is not your kingdom at all but mine. My throne sits on this earth and in Heaven and I control the circumstances of the world and behold I will give you a new mind and take my rightful place in the throne room of your mind.  Rob?  What? What was that? I don’t know for sure but I don’t think I will ask anything more of Third Person. I agree, I think we better get some help in figuring this out. Rob now that the Mind of Christ has taken over does that mean we are homeless? No, we still have us we will just have to rename our kingdom and write us a new song. Boy does that make me feel better I have noticed those guys out there by the freeway asking for money because they were homeless.

I could have just as easily entitled this piece “A Woman’s cluttered Mind” but as I have been learning recently I don’t have a clue as to how a woman thinks.


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