There are times when words of encouragement from another is strangely not enough. It does not create the desired result intended by the comforter and they drift away wondering, perplexed why their words were so seemingly rebuffed and rejected. No my friend it was not your intent or your words that found no home in me somehow I needed more, something strangely unknown to me. It is an agitation something unsettled within my soul an uneasiness felt but with no answer as to cause. What ails you my friend? I don’t know comes the answer but something is just not right. I feel loss and a despondency and I wonder if I have fallen in some way from my pleasantness of sensing the Lord‘s Presence so strongly and there was joy and happiness now replaced by this shakiness and I sense the Lord has gone from me to find myself once again alone. So alone, that old familiar friend, and I wonder do I now return backward toward a regression of sorts. Where are you Lord and where have you gone? Can it be that I will never learn to walk aright to be a man in which God can say He is well pleased? Why does learning the ways of the Spirit have to be so full of pitfalls seemingly forever before me and I plead my case awash in tears asking forgiveness so that somehow the moment of peace may return unto me. But the Master does keep His distance and He says Stand Up and Breathe. Who has moved my Son? Have I who pledges to never leave or forsake you become the invisible one or is it the man who has darkened his eyes so that he no longer sees? Attune thine ear so that you might hear me. I have set thy course my son and I have watched thee one day be full of faith and you do pray for another for healing and you think you have brought this petition before me and you have. Then when the prayer seemingly goes unanswered and the one for whom you have prayed seems to on their own volition take the step toward healing you do hang your head and grovel in self-pity because you believe you missed it. Still the thought came over the subject in need and they stepped toward resolution seemingly on their own and you the remorseful one feel somehow slighted. Is it you that is to be credited by My work my son? Is the flesh so strong yet within you that you misconstrue the cause of healing to be human? What man is it that you know by taking thought can add one cubit to anything of God. Can your Heavenly Father who knows when a small bird does hit the earth be unaware of a critical issue to one much greater to your Lord than a bird? Does the glory go to man or to the King of Kings?
But now my Son you sit in a state of sadness when joy should fill your mind for the healing for which you prayed is occurring and it is by My hand and you have seen things as they are for it is I who will work and the remaining question is will you let me? Empty thyself of fleshly precepts and learn Jesus in raising the dead did but credit His Father and Jesus did say to all who would listen that He only did what his Father instructed and carried out only those things to which he was charged. And now at this present time allow new understanding of Being transcend the separation between Me and you and see that in this Unity all things are possible and you can plant and you can water but it is I the Most High who does bring forth the increase. Your gifts and talents are from me now function in them not looking back and function as a member of the Body of Christ with a confidence and assurance in the One True God. Take captive your thoughts and let your projects also be captive to the Will and Purpose of God. Now that you know what to look for it shall become easier to find. Revelation comes only by the Holy Spirit and He comes for preparation, knowledge and application to one’s life and He comes at the discretion of the Lord. A stirring in your spirit is caused by the One who provides the stirring and it has purpose for the changing of life and its direction. If the Holy Spirit is to speak He must have the Child’s full attention. And so this despondency, depression and even loneliness is but a separation based on flesh and not on Truth. And surely this Truth shall set you free.
Then Job (Rob) replied to the Lord:
I know that you can do all things;
no purpose of yours can be thwarted.
You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my plans without knowledge?’
Surely I spoke of things I did not understand,
things too wonderful for me to know.
“You said, ‘Listen now, and I will speak;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.’
My ears had heard of you
but now my eyes have seen you.
Therefore I despise myself
and repent in dust and ashes.”