Yesterday I decided that Love hurts. Yesterday I decided that Love is all encompassing with no boundary and inescapable. Yesterday I wondered if the PAIN of Love was a good thing or a bad thing. Yesterday I experienced a lifetime of supposed forgotten hurts flowing from my eyes as a source to rivers of bitterness and pain. Yesterday I was to learn that God’s perfect Love does move to expel the lower fleshly aspects of perceived definitions of love. Yesterday and today I dwell on Love, I wonder about Love and whether or not man can even define it. Today I wonder if a man such as I can grasp the fullness of God’s Love, can I even begin to understand the ramifications of its inclusiveness? Can I truly relinquish all to God for His disposal of those things in my life He finds unfit and trust Him to eradicate everything that keeps me from His best? Now it came about after these things, that God tested Abraham, and said to him, “Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” He said, “Take now your son, your only son, whom you love, Isaac, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I will tell you.” So Abraham rose early in the morning and saddled his donkey, and took two of his young men with him and Isaac his son; and he split wood for the burnt offering, and arose and went to the place of which God had told him. Robert! Yes Lord, here I am. Take your Old Man of Flesh and offer him as a burnt offering in the valley you call life and I shall meet you there. And so it was that God did meet the man Robert and rendered him to ashes by the Refiners fire and the man found that the Refinery was named Love. And the man wept and he thought of his former life dispelling all that he thought he had long ago reconciled and found it still there, still alive, still unresolved and still bitter and stinging to his eyes. His body wretched and he wondered of the whereabouts of the strong man who was now reduced to a self- perceived weak man in bodily form as tears run down his cheeks. Robert! Yes Lord? Do you love Me? Yes Lord. Then Give Me all you hold dear and closest to your heart and do not withhold anything from Me. Do you really mean everything my Lord? My Child, I do mean everything to include every aspect and every desire of thine heart – Do I perceive hesitation My Son? Yes Lord you do truly know the issues of this man’s heart and where could I go to hide from thee for I know that You are the All in All? Can I return to my Mother’s womb to escape and start again? No Lord I know that You see all things, know all things and knew me even before I was a seed in my Mother’s womb. So the verdict is to be rendered upon this man of guilt reconciled only by the Blood of Christ. This man is learning the cost of obedience to which you have said is greater than praise and I say to myself shouldn’t this be a simple matter and yet I pause and You patiently wait for an answer. Robert! Do you love Me? Oh Lord, like Peter you have now asked three times do I love You. Shall I, like Peter, deny You three times? I surrender Lord I give all to You but it hurts, it tears at me, it renders me in the former sense, void and empty and I weep as though for a lost one.
Shall there be a Resurrection? Shall I rise again as did Jesus? Shall I who does benefit from the most profound Sacrifice of Jesus become a part of His Act of Love? Did my Lord endure pain and shame from mankind as He stood and withstood slander and torturous pain appointed unto Him by His Father to reconcile the world? And just how much pain do you know as compared to that of Christ Jesus? Did He sweat blood? Did He wonder at the sleepiness of His companions? Did He ask if this Sacrificial Cup could be lifted from Him? Did He feel Pain because of a Father’s Love? Did the Father’s Love prevail and was there victory? Is Jesus now this day the King of kings and Lord of lords and your Savior? Do you this day then sacrifice upon this alter Jesus built and shall you have part in this very same Resurrection? Do you now also say unto Me not my will Father, but thy will be done?
And I answer Him and say yes Lord thy will be done
And the Lord asks Robert do you Love Me?
And Robert says Yes Lord I Love You!